Goodbye 2011

New Year's Eve 2011.  I can't say I'm sorry to see 2011 go.  It has not been a good year for me.  Although death is part of life and dad lived a good, full life, his passing has impacted me more than I would have thought.  Intellectually I knew as 2011 began that we had only a few years at best before he and mom would be gone.  But to actually have him gone, to know that in this life I can't ask his advice or talk to him, has hurt more than I thought.  With all that needs to be done for mom, I think I have not completed the grieving process for him that I need to.  I hope that in 2012 I can do that so that the new year will be better.  In the meantime, good riddance 2011.